May 30, 2025
I am very tired and on many drugs. I deleted all the photos after putting them on the drive. My hope is that it may help it not sting as much if I don't have as much of a potential to accidentally see something that would remind me of her again. I still have the photos and messages, but they are not on any device, they are on a old ass flash drive for me to store in a hard to get to spot so they still exist, just not within my easy reach. I think a lot about stuff, and I don’t always know how to share it. But it feels nice when someone wants to ask anyway.
I don't enjoy anything like I used to. Often I don't shower or leave the house anymore, now i have an excuse, being that I am recovering from surgery, but I was still doing the same thing before. This means it is not a quick habit trick one can bestow upon you.
I think a lot about stuff, and I don’t always know how to share it. But it feels nice when someone wants to ask anyway. The drugs are making it harder to see when I am trying to type. I have taken many naps today, I am surprised I got out of bed at all.